Finalist, Slimmer of the Year 2019
Weight Loss: 40.3 kg
I had a LOVE/HATE relationship with food. I LOVE/D the social aspect of food but I also became addicted to using food as my stress reliever, and my ‘reward’ at the end of a hard day of work. I didn’t see food as fuel, I saw it as a treat and something I deserved. This led me to obviously put on weight, and the more weight I seemed to gain, the more I couldn’t stop eating. It was the part of food that I hated. I was addicted to the sugar highs and the carb overloads. I just didn’t know how to stop!
Truthfully I don’t remember how I went from being 70kgs to 109kgs – I was too scared to face the truth so I avoided the scales. My before photo was taken January 2018. I remember how disgusted I was when I saw how it turned out. It was a very surreal feeling, I completely disconnected with the person I saw in the photo – surely this wasn’t really me?
The weight gain had an enormous impact on my life. I was so ashamed of what I looked like. Before the gain, clothes shopping was a joy and I saw it as a form of art and expression, but in the end my favourite stores didn’t stock my size. I stopped wanting to go out in public and avoided social events. I was physically and emotionally exhausted and sad. My health was also suffering as I was told that I had developed a fatty liver which can lead to other more severe illnesses.
In the beginning I used Cambridge because if I couldn’t trust myself in the process, I could at least put my trust in someone (something) that did. In return, Cambridge taught me how to trust myself again, and has made me strong physically and mentally. Not only that, my doctor came to see me after a recent operation to tell me that my liver has now improved almost 100% & I have added 10 years to my life! I cried, bittersweet tears – my weight literally could have killed me!
Now, I wake up every day feeling proud and accomplished. Every day I take steps towards treating my body with the respect it deserves, and that ripples down and positively affects EVERYTHING I do and my overall attitude towards ‘really living’.